NO NEGOTIATIONS

I won't hold myself back anymore. I'm done settling for average when I know I can be exceptional.

Photo by Zion Otis

Since the beginning of 2024, I have felt a strong urge to complete a 7-day water-only fast to deepen my relationship with God. However, despite my plans to improve my singing and get in shape for performances, I have only been able to make it to day two. Lately, I have been struggling to stay on track as I find myself sleeping until 10 am and spending more time on my phone than reading the Bible. It was only when I saw a photo of myself that I realized how much I had changed.

I have started avoiding people and spending more time alone because I am disappointed in myself. I returned to school in January to pursue my Film degree. The combination of studying and freelancing has been stressful, and I have turned to food delivery and depression naps. There was a time when I was happy and confident, but I have lost that sense of self.

Reflecting on the mindset that helped me achieve my goals in the past, I recalled Kobe Bryant's approach of making unwavering commitments to himself. He mentioned that he never changed his mind about the arrangement he made with himself. I realized that I have been taking the easy way out by constantly changing my plans, which has led to my failure to achieve my goals.

I commit to waking up at 4 am every day and praying for the first 15 minutes of my day. Then, I will go for a 20-minute run then rotate between three videos from my YouTube playlist. By Easter, I commit to catching up on my daily Bible schedule, and then I will read the suggested scripture each day. Additionally, I will read 20 pages of the dictionary and 10 pages from a vocabulary book before 9 am every day. I will practice my vocal drills daily and freestyle for half an hour each day on random beats. Furthermore, I will practice precalculus for an hour and read 50 pages from the required texts for my film classes. I will write new verses every day and post one each Wednesday. Moreover, I will take one dance class per month--NO NEGOTIATIONS. I know the woman I aspire to be is on the other side of this commitment.

What are some goals you are tired of missing? Imagine the amazing progress we can achieve together if we keep working hard for the next six months. I truly believe that the improvements we'll see will be outstanding and I need that in my life right now.

Are you ready to take control of your life? Let's make a promise to ourselves today that we won't settle for less. Together, we can work towards self-improvement to achieve our goals. Say it with me: "From now on, I won't negotiate with myself." Let's do this!